Monday, January 9, 2012
Adult Content warning removed
It was bugging the shit out of me so I removed it. I figure no one will be reading my blog who can't tolerate a bit of potty mouth.
1st week - progress is made!
It was weigh in day today and all that hunger paid off! I lost 2.6 lbs since last Tuesday! YAY!!! Wouldn't it be nice if weight came off as easily as it comes on? At least it's coming off. I'm back under that dreaded threshold now and now the plan is to widen the gap. As a reward, Weight Watchers took away one of my points. Oh well. It's a sign of progress if I want to be positive about it!
Today I'm suffering with a painful lower back again. It's very difficult to stand up straight. Was like this all day yesterday too. I'll be calling my chiropractor for an appt in a bit. This is what I get for ignoring the signals my body sent me last week. I was warned! Then again, it's probably better to go when there is actually a problem instead of a warning signal. This is yet another reason why it's good for me to lose weight. I have a deep curve in my lower back. It runs in the family. But this curve means that when I carry extra weight it puts the rest of my spine under duress. I suppose it's that way with everyone but my chiropractor said mine was going to be more of a problem for that than usual. He's the only doctor I have who has gotten on me about my weight. The others never say a thing. He tells me I need to lose weight to be healthier and to save my back. I really appreciate that about him! He's being honest!
On that note, there is a movement for fat people to accept themselves as beautiful and to fight back against the biases. It seems to be ok to make fun of fat people. We even have sitcoms where fat people make fun of themselves. yay. I have mixed feelings about all this. On the one hand, I don't think self loathing is good for anyone. I think you should do what you can to feel good about yourself at any size. At the same time, it is unhealthy to be overweight. I don't think it's something to be celebrated. I think folks who are overweight should try to do something to get themselves healthier. Look at their diet and activity levels and make some adjustments if possible. I don't think wallowing in it is a good thing. I do think being fat is a health problem. Just like smoking or other risky behaviors.
I've probably spent close to half my life being fat so I'm not being a snob about it. I've struggled with negative feelings about my appearance. I know I can look better because I have. It's harder for me to be slim than heavy...seems like my natural tendency is towards heavy. But I don't like having disappearing cheekbones or my muffin top. I've had a number of problems because of my weight. They especially crop up when I get to a certain level...which sadly I hit right around the holidays this year.
One of the most annoying is my skin. My skin doesn't like this and will sometimes get really irritated and get patches that act like hives. Raised, hot, sore welts on my abdomen. It feels like the skin gets hardened in areas where my pants or bra are snug on my skin. When these kick up it often takes a couple of days to settle down. This never happens to me unless I'm big. I do NOT like it when it does!
Another, that I've luckily avoided this time around, is plantar fasciitis. I have high arches in my feet. Last time I got really heavy I suffered thru months of pain with every step before I finally accepted that the problem wouldn't heal without help. I was diagnosed with plantar fasciitis. This means the tissues that attach to your heel become inflamed and have little tears in them that continue to be damaged/irritated with every step. The description I just googled says it is a common result of long periods of weight bearing. It was NOT fun to live with. Every step I took hurt! Makes it rather difficult to lose weight when exercise becomes sharply painful. I had to get special arch supports, lots of anti-inflammatory meds and icing. It cleared up. I don't want it back again.
I already mentioned my back.
Another thing is athleticism. When I'm slim, hiking around and rock climbing are so much fun! I trust my body and it's easier to move it where I want it when I'm not hauling extra weight or off balance. When I'm fat, tying my shoelaces can make me breath hard. (Bending over can make it hard to breath around a fat gut.) I love to be out and exploring the world I live in so while I also love delicious fatty food, I need to remember the cost to the other side of my life if I don't manage my appetite.
I don't think I need to talk about sex except to say that if you feel sexy, sex is a TON more fun! If you aren't happy with your body and would prefer to hide it than flaunt it...well this isn't rocket science is it?
This entry is reinforcing my commitment to losing weight. I am a pleasure seeker in life. I love things that make me feel good! One of those things is food and it's one that I have easy access to at pretty much any time compared to other things I like to do. This love affair can interfere with the others BIG TIME if I don't strive for some balance. I'm not out hiking in mountains all the time. My boyfriend lives over 1,200 miles away so I'm not thinking about being sexy much either. (I wonder how he'll feel about my tendency to change into saggy, baggy sweats the minute I walk in the door from work?) So this part of my life needs to be consciously managed.
I am pleased with the progress I made this past week. I really needed that! I want to do it again this coming Monday!
Today I'm suffering with a painful lower back again. It's very difficult to stand up straight. Was like this all day yesterday too. I'll be calling my chiropractor for an appt in a bit. This is what I get for ignoring the signals my body sent me last week. I was warned! Then again, it's probably better to go when there is actually a problem instead of a warning signal. This is yet another reason why it's good for me to lose weight. I have a deep curve in my lower back. It runs in the family. But this curve means that when I carry extra weight it puts the rest of my spine under duress. I suppose it's that way with everyone but my chiropractor said mine was going to be more of a problem for that than usual. He's the only doctor I have who has gotten on me about my weight. The others never say a thing. He tells me I need to lose weight to be healthier and to save my back. I really appreciate that about him! He's being honest!
On that note, there is a movement for fat people to accept themselves as beautiful and to fight back against the biases. It seems to be ok to make fun of fat people. We even have sitcoms where fat people make fun of themselves. yay. I have mixed feelings about all this. On the one hand, I don't think self loathing is good for anyone. I think you should do what you can to feel good about yourself at any size. At the same time, it is unhealthy to be overweight. I don't think it's something to be celebrated. I think folks who are overweight should try to do something to get themselves healthier. Look at their diet and activity levels and make some adjustments if possible. I don't think wallowing in it is a good thing. I do think being fat is a health problem. Just like smoking or other risky behaviors.
I've probably spent close to half my life being fat so I'm not being a snob about it. I've struggled with negative feelings about my appearance. I know I can look better because I have. It's harder for me to be slim than heavy...seems like my natural tendency is towards heavy. But I don't like having disappearing cheekbones or my muffin top. I've had a number of problems because of my weight. They especially crop up when I get to a certain level...which sadly I hit right around the holidays this year.
One of the most annoying is my skin. My skin doesn't like this and will sometimes get really irritated and get patches that act like hives. Raised, hot, sore welts on my abdomen. It feels like the skin gets hardened in areas where my pants or bra are snug on my skin. When these kick up it often takes a couple of days to settle down. This never happens to me unless I'm big. I do NOT like it when it does!
Another, that I've luckily avoided this time around, is plantar fasciitis. I have high arches in my feet. Last time I got really heavy I suffered thru months of pain with every step before I finally accepted that the problem wouldn't heal without help. I was diagnosed with plantar fasciitis. This means the tissues that attach to your heel become inflamed and have little tears in them that continue to be damaged/irritated with every step. The description I just googled says it is a common result of long periods of weight bearing. It was NOT fun to live with. Every step I took hurt! Makes it rather difficult to lose weight when exercise becomes sharply painful. I had to get special arch supports, lots of anti-inflammatory meds and icing. It cleared up. I don't want it back again.
I already mentioned my back.
Another thing is athleticism. When I'm slim, hiking around and rock climbing are so much fun! I trust my body and it's easier to move it where I want it when I'm not hauling extra weight or off balance. When I'm fat, tying my shoelaces can make me breath hard. (Bending over can make it hard to breath around a fat gut.) I love to be out and exploring the world I live in so while I also love delicious fatty food, I need to remember the cost to the other side of my life if I don't manage my appetite.
I don't think I need to talk about sex except to say that if you feel sexy, sex is a TON more fun! If you aren't happy with your body and would prefer to hide it than flaunt it...well this isn't rocket science is it?
This entry is reinforcing my commitment to losing weight. I am a pleasure seeker in life. I love things that make me feel good! One of those things is food and it's one that I have easy access to at pretty much any time compared to other things I like to do. This love affair can interfere with the others BIG TIME if I don't strive for some balance. I'm not out hiking in mountains all the time. My boyfriend lives over 1,200 miles away so I'm not thinking about being sexy much either. (I wonder how he'll feel about my tendency to change into saggy, baggy sweats the minute I walk in the door from work?) So this part of my life needs to be consciously managed.
I am pleased with the progress I made this past week. I really needed that! I want to do it again this coming Monday!
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